Rents!

Growing up I always had the best time with my Parents!  I was a trouble maker at times, but always appreciated my Parents and everything they did for me.  As time went on Friends of mine would lose a parent and I felt for them as I couldn’t imagine life without my Mommy or Daddy.  They will never leave me I thought.  I said to my Mommy one day “You’re the best – if anything happens to you I hope I am involved as I will never survive without you or Daddy.” 

Little did I know my worst nightmare would come true one day.  On September 04, 2011 my Daddy called me saying he can’t wake Mommy up.  I chuckled to myself as I thought I will wake her ass up when I get there.  I walked into my mommy’s room and knew.  She was cold to touch and snuggled up peacefully.  I called 911 and they came out went into her room and came out to tell me “I am so sorry, if there was anything we could do we would, but she passed in her sleep.”  Just like that, unexpected and uncalled for - my Mommy was gone.  We buried her that Friday. 

We all took it hard, but mostly my Daddy who lost his true Love.  Folks came out saying “at least she didn’t suffer.”  That was not a consolation prize in my mind, like that’s supposed to make me feel better.  I didn’t understand because my Mommy didn’t suffer, but for 4 ½ years after she passed, I watched my Daddy decline.  He suffered emotionally and physically and I watched.  Brother and I did all we could for Daddy, but ultimately hospice was called and morphine kept him comfortable until he was reunited with his true love on April 04, 2016. 

Now I understand while my Mommy did not suffer, but rather a quick and dirty job of her passing in her sleep, I watched my Daddy suffer with multiple health issues and a broken heart of his late wife.  I have experienced both ends, a nightmare of any child. 

The fact that I write this shows that I learned so much from my rents!  So many memories and ass kicking lessons from both brought me to this point!  Stay strong!  I have friends who have one parent left and/or both parents and I get jealous at times, but I know my rents set Brother and I up with what we needed and it was okay to go.  If anything, love and thank your rents and if need be, take care of them with love!  I told my Mommy I would not survive with out her or Daddy, but here I am.  They taught me well.  I miss them both, but will live on in their memory.